My Mate Is A Virgin – Chapter 13

Jasper POV

A mate’s presence was known to be relieving to their fated partners, but because of the s****l tension between Dree and I, sleeping beside her was always slightly unsettling. Tonight, however, it was even worse than usual, and it wasn’t because of my hard d**k.

I had grown used to the constant guilt I felt ever since I learned about her being a virgin. I was ashamed of my past. Of how it prevented me from giving her what she wanted. Of how I kept running. Of the lies I was feeding her. Of what Sasha would think of me if she saw the way I was acting. And most importantly, I was ashamed of how I had turned my back on my princess after the first intimate moment we shared.

illiant way of keeping her satisfied while also calming down my nerves, which would in turn allow me to postpone the responsibilities I would have to face a little longer.

way I could think of to set my thoughts straight. It was instinctive. But after I realized how much of a jerk I had been by doing so, my heart broke.

s eating me up from the inside, making it impossible for me to rest. s**t! Why was it so hard for me to keep up with my façade now? Why couldn’t I be comfortable being the worthless stray anymore?

’re afraid the failure you’ve pretended to be will prove to be true.”

e was still asleep by my side, a good distance away from me on my spacious king-sized bed. I considered pressing my lips against the top of her head in hopes it would magically fix everything, but she would probably slap me if I tried. With a heavy sigh, I rolled out of bed and put on my sports shorts before leaving the room.

ning helped me unwind. Nothing helped clear my head more than a few good blows to the face. By the time I was dismissed along with the other warriors, I had decided I would make it up to Dree by inviting her to another date. Hopefully she would accept to go out with me if I begged on my knees. I was clueless when it came to romance, but maybe I could ask Cait for advice to m

ust ignore it. Taking a deep breath, I easily picked up her scent and followed it outside again.

es as I reached the town square made me freeze in my spot.

oming out of her mouth as Wade’s large fingers massaged her shoulders. Even though they were in public and fully clothed, their interaction had some kind of s****l connotation. At least to me it did.

d, but the emotions I had been bottling up until now seemed to speak louder. I clenched my fists, my wolf’s growls of warning reverberating in my throat.

er,” I said through gritted teeth. The bastard turned in my direction, b

oed through the open space. I was sure everyone was staring at us now, but for once, I didn’t care about being the center of attention. I just wanted to rip the fucker

’t see your mark on her.”

h the town square, towards the pack house.

ut I didn’t budge. We were almost at the entrance of the main building when she finally decided to stand her ground, and being stronger than me, she easily released herself from my grip,

amed at her, my patience gone.

her brows. “Oh, so I owe you explanations now?”

”

you!”

e act like a f*****g child ever since I met you!”

the floor in shame.

and.” As I kept walking, I expected her to let me go. Instead, she followed me.

ou don’t tell me, I sure

ryone else does.”

int of concern in her voice.

.”

to me you’ve been running from the problems you

ized she was right. “Maybe. But it’s all

It’s never too late to change, you know.” I was ready to continue marching on my pity parade, but Dree roughly grabbed me by the shoulder, forcing me to face her yet again. When I looked into her exotic diamond eyes, I noticed they were filled with different emotions. Confusion, frustration, rejection. But also…sympathy. “So tell me, Jasper Stray, why d

ed to freeze around me.

n… It was the exact same question that started it all.

ealization struck me, my head started spinning as my stomach turned.

ardest, yet the easiest words I ever had to say. “Can I be honest with you, Dree?”

wish you would have done from the

could change my mind. Running was easy, but it was also tiring, and I was exhausted. I couldn’t avoid the truth any longer. Once we made it to the Gamma suite, I sat down on the bed while she took her place beside me. To my surprise, Andromeda was more patient than ever as she waited for me to organ

impostor. Not knowing who I was anymore was…scary. What if I truly was what everyone thought of me?

ill to pretend to be someone you’re not. But to understand exactly what you are and own it… Now that’s some brave s**t.”

ars taking over. “What if I don’t like who I am?”

never change if you keep denying your own identity. Be brave, Jasper,” he encouraged me. “Be you.”

ndaid.

off my lips, I couldn’t stop. The whole time, I didn’t dare look at her, afraid I would find any trace of disgust or disappointment in her expression.

nts abandoned me, but growing up as a stray wasn’t easy. The whole pack looked down on me because of my origins. Lance was a stray before he earned his surname, and he shared a lot of the hate with me, but it affected him in a different way. The mean comments made him work twice as hard to become someone important. I, on the other hand, decided to become the trash everyone thought I was. It was easier to live under that mask.

ne with that. Or at least I forced myself to believe I was.” I made a brief pause. Opening old wounds was painful, and it made it hard to breathe. The rest of the story was even more hurtful, but knowing that my mate deserved to know, I pushed through the pain and went on.

est. Would things have been any different if I had turned the girl down? “I regretted it the next morning. I’m not sure if she was trying to take advantage of me, but what I knew for a fact was that she wanted to be special. So, I decided I wouldn’t let her. That’s when I started to sleep around. From then on, s*x ended up becoming kinda like an escape for me, and it fit my façade, so I kept it up. It was fun for a while, until a friend asked me the same question you just asked me.”

since I started my monologue, and I nodded in return.

to make something work. I wanted to make us work.”

d at me. My heart started beating

just some kind of playboy who wanted me to work for it. Goddess, if I had just listened to you…”

ver tried to tell you.”

“Of course not. I never let you.” It was her turn to look away as her thumb brushed the back of my hand. “I was so obsessed with becoming Queen that I ended up forgetting you might not be ready to be King. I was selfish. I thought I had the right to just push you to do what I wanted, but had I known your true reasons, I would never hav

d. “I was a terrible mate.”

a whisper. “I’m ready to start again if you are, Jasper Stray.”

it made me melt. When her soft lips brushed against mine, I instinctively opened my mouth, inviting her in. Instead of devouring me, she

t, her touch.

I traced every detail of her perfect face with my rough fingers. When we both started running out of breath, I pulled away, finding comfort in simply brushing my

ffen.

sorry. I’m not ready yet,” I confessed, not daring to look at her.

I felt brave enough to gaze into her eyes, I realized she was smiling sweetly. “I mean, what’s another few weeks after waiting a whole eighteen years?” She chuckled, and it was the sweetest sound I had ever heard.