I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 16
I desperately need to confide, I know that I can trust him. So I naturally place my head at his chest and listen attentively to the harmonious beat of his heart.
I take a deep breath and decide to go for it.
—- Today is a big day or rather it is the most important day of my life, I began, playing nervously with his t-shirt.
tinue.
er 5th, it’s my dad’s birthday…I’ve been living this day without him for three years…you know, I’ve always been closer to him than to my mother .
school.
at day.
me attentively, his fascinating brown eyes cover me with an en
disguise, but on that day it was only my father who counted and the gift he had chosen….
m that today I became this person .
slightly when Gabriel’s fingers venture al
hing temple.
e and of course they found out.
hat night. I was beside myself and angry for the first time at Dad all because of people who weren’t worth it. I will never forget that day when his face expressed intense anger that was only aimed at me. He was driving in this inappropriate state and a driver or rather it was my father the driver who drove i
ve had the punishment I deserved.
d I will always have every girl’s superhero by my side. I hate myself…
rst into tears before his eyes and I squeeze his g
ything against fate, he had to give up the ghost that evening.
s rebel in my brain, I want to believe what he tells me.
dantly along his skin, but at the moment it doesn’t matter to me, surely tomorrow I will r
what I need right now.
me.
od it felt good.
my ear.
ace my hands flat against his sculpte
you. Thank you Gabriel, I said shyly.
ys count on me Liya,” he whispers in his
y swollen eyes, my excessively red nose…, I must simply be awful.
lee his ins
. “I didn’t wait, I remained unmoved, electrified by the brushing of our lips.
moved back a few centimeters, leaving our faces close enough to disturb m
cheek sensitive to his touch, then he stops at the level of my nose which he pinches lightly with, a smile on the corner. — I like this red shade
ou, he sa
n up
briel, ” I said offended.
my waist possessively.
beautiful in any situation.
words , I have never been able to accep
A vibration under my thigh
It’s my ph
from the pocket of his jeans.
angs up.
I’m better now.
his state.
s again and I manage to make out the nam
loudly but does
bed.
n my lips.
whatever you want, h
im to the door. Before he cr
e okay? , he said softly.
my eyes when he places his lips against my skin once again.
ed.
my home for good.
want him to leave.
ny lifeless rooms.
im to come back.
ce myself to climb the stairs to get to
hat I still haven’t swallowed anything since this morning.
eyes land on the watch…it’s 10:15 p.m., my heart is beating faster,
it on hastily.
without further delay, barely having taken a step
and set off.
fast, as is
her I go from my neighborhood, the darker the streets become, I ignore the fear that makes my
. I take a deep breath and only look straight ahead…. I’m almost there.
rollable, impatient to get to my destination.
arrived! Everything is dark, only the benevolent light of the
wn, knowing the path perfectly.
he dogs, the violent whistling of the wind, and kneel without further delay against the hard, cold ground.
e sight of his grave.
breathe properly, I try as best I can to ca
I came on time, Dad.
ten against the hard plate with my fingertips.
e is absent…I…I’m really sorry dad.
y face.
new…this man is unbearable, he’s just a pervert and a pedophile, a real Simply a*****e…I hate him.
but it’s just impossible.
…
man approached me closely.
…I think…that I am interested in him dad…yes I’m not going to lie to you, I like him.
his grave and curl up on myself. I’m terribly cold, my shaking is u
irmly closed, and dig my fingers into the earth
hday dad… I say, crying s
heart aches
ant for this year? , daddy.please answer me…wrap me with your protective arms, reassure me with your unique smell…I need it terribly…I miss you…