I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 22
I wake up with a start, my heart beating vigorously, sweat beading
on my forehead, and my breathing is irregular.
A dream! ….A f*****g nightmare!
see that this is not reality. I try to resume normal breathing, I look around me… I am alone in this huge bed, fortunately.
be really strange after this damn nightmare.
still in shock and
dor that leads to the stairs.
s to go to the living room, I look around, no sign of li
s, my stomach gurgles and I am
alivating.
head towards the kitchen and remain
s to me to be eggs, he is facing away, letting me admire his broad bare shoulders, his muscular back…he is wearing the same jogging pants as the day bef
Good morning,” I finally said to
tiful smiles.
own, I’m almost finished.. .. .
pieces of cheese.
ge plate of ham omelette next to me
places it next to me. too close for my taste.
glamorous I admit.
snatches the bread that was in my hands and begins to eat from the same plate as me, his leg brushes against mine…this proximity reminds me of the first time he was at our house and he was explaining to me
ind myself in his beautiful home, we eat together as if all this was normal… when i
eard around his square jaw fascinates me…and I hate him more and more for having such thoughts about this man who is forbidden to me.
appetite anymore,
s me.
aptivating gaze, I take a tissue to wipe my chocolate-covered fingers but he stops me b
.
look at him with incomprehensio
de
ils never take their eyes off me as if to watch for each of my reactions.
rs run through me when his hot tongue wr
his teeth enjo
n me?
He gently removes his lips, leaving a trail of his sali
is enough to put me in all my
perated, glances at the screen then picks up immediately.
es,” he thunders.
m to encourage me to stay.
clear the table under his curious look. I can see his gaze wandering along
gue.
plates.
e hairs on the back of my neck, his imposing body brushes against mine and his large hands which immobilize my fingers from any acti
whispers in my e
s for a moment
l to compose mys
ow voice, short of breath, disturbed by his proxim
hands, on the contrary, he tightens hi
gainst mine.
s demand it.
mind.
and her fiancé
o my mother, it’s atrocious… If she really matters
reacting.
nly turns me to face him.
d
ntly places his
since the first time he kissed me I have never been able to forget the softness of his lips, their sweet and forbidden taste which makes me lose my mind. head .
I don’t have any experience but I know
grip them firmly, bringing my pelvis closer to his, revealing to me without embarrassment the burning desire that is hidden un
He bites my lower lip to seal our tongues an
yself close to him and get closer.
caresses my right blade without
entleness, driven by our wild desire.
long my stomach through my shirt. She
cefully grab my chest, I moan ag
lips.
erce kiss to nestle in the hollow of my neck.
t so much that it hurts.
ites the sensitive flesh of my
neck.
like an animal agains
nd straightens up to meet my gaze.
like mine imagines it and our jerky breaths
in
t he steps back and help
e which betrayed his ever present desire.
of me afterwards.
eaves the kitchen, he
llege.
to hell
remains silent as a tomb as if I did not exist, he seems nor
at
front of the university.
out of this vehicle but I stay there motionless waiting for I don’t know what.
ghtly, and his jaw is clenched.
looks str
approach me again…
he big gate.
s way..for him.my mother..and m
niversity. I wonder
no it was
ible since there
smile on
my lips.
n I reach her.
r sullen face.
e?
me.
! We enter the amphitheater and take a place at the back.
etely forgot to warn you, m I apologize
ponse, she shakes her hand indifferently.
gets impatient, getting closer of me.
in my chair, uncomfortable with this conversation.
y.
towards me to smell my scent.
from? , she continues with a naughty smile on her lips.
ck excuse…anything.
,” I said impassively.
think.
h inwardly when Yanis appears..I have never been so happy to see him.
cussion later, she whispers.
n my
hands.
teacher
e becomes distant…
ch is really strange!
ng with her hands buried in her pockets who is staring at me with a smile on her lips.
uncomfortably and notice that the room i
pt well ?
a long time.
Yes, very good!” I replied
his face.
interest you in what
lied .
I have to raise my head to m
dark gaze.
hat for the catch-up it will be lost in advance, he whispers in a cold tone that makes my
d.
lost my temper.
es he says.
s…it would be a pleasure to be able to help
ets my face, and his black
u.
his proximity and his gaze, but he holds me by the wrist, forcing me to face him.
f paper in the pocket of my jeans.
ge your mind,
oice.
releases me from his grip.
h big eyes, I glare at Yanis then I rush towards her.
hat lead to the exit.
iel’s brother, ” she gets carried away.
I widen my eyes, not believ
en and then sit on a bench.
ook in his eyes he likes you! And otherwise I need i
, I whispered.
to have two guys at your feet.
g nonsense…
her lips.
sks me.
y shoulders, pulling me closer to him so that my back meets his strong chest.
feel a lump in my
stomach…
you? I replied.
s there…and
n’t do it..
Xavier that comes to mind, his virile hands caressing me, his warm breath against my neck, what he manages to make me feel with a simple look is much stronger
our body…everything, he whispers to me
ollow of m
against my chest, I feel bad.
the arms of another while… shit I’m despicable, I don’t deserve Gabriel.
he worries
I tried to articulate. .
es his soft lips against
mine.
man makes me feel.
against my lips s
It’s after 6 p.m. and I am exhausted. A
meters to finally arrive in front of my home.
l of lasagna tickles my nostrils.
I enter the kitchen and without surprise I see my mother cooking. A smile stretches my lips when
ng, darling, sh
mom.
and displays a tense smile.
help you ? , I suggested.
eagerly, I approach her and take some vegetables out of
d to apologize for yesterday…I…I went too far…I didn’t mean what I said…, she begins.
what I did to her yesterday. I’m disgusted, she doesn’t deserve all this.
d on my shoulder. I meet his desolate look and my guilt increases
m, let’s forget all that, I say in a low voice.
r arms.
er tightly against me and
meet this young man who accompanied you,
hat’s a good idea!
the evening with mom.
nis’ number in the other.
m a message, it’s true that he is
nse from him.
u? »
r a moment and remember that I finish my c
ell him yes, m and give
d of the bed and wait impatiently for Morpheus.
y
my room while quietly waiting for the arrival of our dear teacher.
finds inside.
rwear really yours? she was surprised
furrowed eyebrows.
I imagined you with something from m
laughing.
s when the doorbell rings.
randa and I take care of opening the door.
in a simple t-shirt and jeans, it’s a
all day long.
him to come in, he looks around with a smile on his face.
Follow
sees my friend, he
m going to take the risk of
me room?
y. I hold back my smile at his
sit next to them
lesson.
pass and we are almost finished.
ip and gives me an apologetic look.
e.
y murderous gaze.
finished, you can w
.
s me and puts her ear
r a good half hour.
eed that she won’t leave until Yanis leaves the house,
ly run my hand through my hair, now finding myself
e with th
s, he gets up from his place to sit right next to
, taking my papers from my hands.
as possible. I concentrate as best I can to finish it as quickly as possible.
or my
houlder, or when h
ine.
insistent gaze.
e third person w
at him with a raised eyebrow and meet his serious expression, he lights a cig
blows the smoke out of my
aid, moving my hand to clear away the smoke.
shrugs his shoulders and hands me his pac
e cigarette between my lips waits for him to hand me his lighter. but he leans
ing his
at me, his irises so dark that disturb me.
yes…the dark color of his eyes are fascin
is beard is growing and I think it suits him quite well, he’s not as handsome as Gabriel b
my brother?
oment.
n meets my gaze.
loses the few centimeters that separate our faces.
ides against mine, his beard tickles my cold skin, he st
nswer, he whispers
rom the table under my lost gaze then gets up to leave without a word.