I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 38

Two years later..

Xavier’s point of view..

— I can’t wait Xavier..

and her hand placed on mine force me to look away from the window to give her my full attention

y offers him a smile, and

I

ep,

s freely invade my mind.

as alleviated my pain, a different atmosphere, a new encounter with this innocent creature sitting by my sid

are going to get married soon… Elisa wants at all costs to put on her white dress in front of her parents, much to my misfortune;

ere; this country where I have caused many more than one disaster, where memories haunt me day and night and a certain face does not leave my mind for a second.

ce over at my fiancée

n but will

taken heart.

d, wake up, I whispered, caressing her cheek.

tters her long eyelashes a number of times.

, she exclaims excitedly.

usiasm.

all our luggage in hand,

me.

t be coming lon

lready.

, an angelic smile stretches her full lips, I intertwine our fin

She

elps us

d guides us to the car parked not far from us.

h Elisa who blurts out an

is

ing t

kly as possible… we will get married and get out of here as quickly as possible.

ing, we finally arrived at our destination. A magnificent and immense villa faces us, my fiancée drags me impatiently with her an

y rush towards her; all for a common

ughter.

tioning any details of my

..

o be the father.

ve years apart isn’t much as far as I know, and my gray hairs haven’t appeared yet aside from a few that I can count on my fingertips. Being called old irritates me…It reminds me of the first time a certain blonde kid

r!

the mother of my fiancée, rinsing her eye on my body.. An old lady comes closer to me, tells

freeze

slaps my butt.

ove of what my granddaughter says, you are a real sportsman at

crazy, what the hell am I doing here?

Xavier; The sooner you get married, the better it will be!

dy, so relax…

family has a funny way of showing it,” I re

fiancée gives me a quick tour of the place, I let her know my need to rest and ver

llapse heavily without further delay

us gaze of Elisa.

r, don’t you want…? »

ite, I cut her off,

g my eyes with

its next to me, caresses my cheek and plac

n you later.

self alone, easily joining the delicious arms of Morpheus.

total darkness of the room, I release Elisa’s long brown hair which tickles my face unpleasantly, she is practically lying on top of me, which prevents me from making any movement.

ers at my

tingling. This technique to keep him away always works and fortunately for me.

leave this comfortable bed, grab some sports clothes from my suitcase and lock myself in the bathro

tly leave our room, I take the stairs without further delay and arrive at the huge living room, I see a small silhouette near the window, grandma is early in the morning!

well! I don’t linger too long on her, and hurry to get out of here.

take a good number of steps before starting to run.

ut of breath from my run, I walk quickly, through alleys that are very familiar to me. I shouldn’t hang around there and yet my legs deci

there. Maybe

anged her habits. after all, two years is not

the last day that we

y compressed.

lashback 2 years ago *

as expecting a

child from this

uld have known how to approach her and would be less

ing for a while.

inside her!

e with frowning eyebrows.

r stomach.

peaking and tell him to rest with my hand on his shoulder.

a clenched jaw.

tinues

– How is

d try..

eyes.

ulling me by the shirt to force me to speak.

rembling hands and encircle his

ears that have fallen.

swer me, please,” she whispers

placing her hands on mine.

ally sorry.

me askance, her cheeks flooded with tears.

s really inside me, isn’t

d and despair-filled gaze.

— It’s not true… it’s a lie. I can’t lose him too. not him, not the only thin

.

usly waiting for me to tell her otherwise, but I can’t do any

uld never have come, a*****e. Gabriel no longer exists. you took me away, you killed me Xavier! I don’t want to see you anymore, get out of my life! I HATE YOU ! I HATE YOU CAN YOU HEAR ME? , she shouts, pouring out all her anger and pain on me and giving me powerful blows on the chest..

, I was a big bastard and now she considers me a monster. I am after all… She

use of me! The father and the baby in a short time, I am

I didn’t I no longer hear her cries of rage and despair. I no longer see her face distorted by immense pain…I just know that she hates me, and that she will never want to see me again, this abominable being which caused the lo

s is surely the last time I will see her… End of the flashback…

This

ing me every moment of my unforgivable mistake.

ly thought about traveling; I thought I would be better off away from all that…I was totally wrong.

tracted me like crazy since I was with her mother, a delicious forbidden fruit..

t…this young girl who was just 18 years old,

way as I did; I will leave in a few days with a ring in my hand as if I was never there.

r noises. I look towards his house, the door opens and I hold my breath impatiently waiting for what happens next.

o me, my fists clench in front of this vision…but I widen my eyes seeing a woma

you reappeared?

ear a familiar voice, I turn around to face Liya’s ol

will soon disappear again ” I replied impassivel

ion to my reply.

if my child and his father

e…

mpossible for me to have answers to my silent questions; — And

a long moment of hesitation.

Ah, I have no idea, my child, she disappeared suddenly without informing

d elsewhere.

moved, a sign that I must not approach her as I told myself, forget her forever and force my brain to imagine her living her life with a name where she deser