I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 40
Xavier’s POV
I don’t know what time it is but there is total silence in my fiancée’s villa
. It’s really late.
ll unable to calm down. And then how could I do it at the sight of this bastard’s face forcing its way between Liya’s sweet li
’re fina
ng to get on my nerves.
stioned him aggressively, glaring at him.
lips.
ar.
I realize that I didn’t even bother to park properly.
catches.
.I..
e seat covering my face with my palms.
ists.
then there is a long silence.
e that.
…what can I say to him?
biggest mistake of my life,” I finally said.
g a woman you don’t love?
ing eyebrows he continues.
low you to hurt her, pull yourself together, nothing is ever too late and don’t ruin
his little one’s happiness.
ve, never forget. Have you never known this F
his butt on the ground and crushes it quickly, I feel his gaze weighing on me waiting for a response from me.
ed her for making me lose all my control. I wanted her to rebuild her life after these years without seeing her again and now that my wish has come
his man is unbearable and painful f
’t know what he’s thinking but this silence annoys me.
ith this man without love?” —
possible… I saw them with their kid, they seemed
id… appearances are deceiving. Let me give you some advice, go see her, you won’t lose anything!’
him sideways.
of your life, don’t get involved with someone else without
ance and
mistake… think about it, on that note, have a good evening.
ubled. Why would I go see her!
I’m lost.
sleep and begins to undress me. I
ought.
d me a message if you didn’t want to talk.
ppointment penetrates my
rums.
of mine needed my help, I was too busy and I didn’t see the time, sorry, I said, approaching her and e
trust, it’s up to you not to damage it.
her
ze crosses mine
“
every time she says these words to me it’s hard for me to respond, I’m exhauste
slow in coming, her watery eyes flutter, I am about to
on me.
sa.
s later
I am again in this hospital looking for her… I think I already know the answers I’m looking for but here I am, I want her to tell me say. that all this is true…we can say that this driver really turn
far away, leaning against a wall. I take the sharp blade out of my pocket, caressing it with my fingertips. I glance around the hallway waiting for him to appear. And when I see her appear, chatting with someone on the phone,
and then approach her discreetly.
your help please.
.I only found this solution to approach him..I’m sure I’m crazy.
aining like this without reacting, and my breathing stops when she slowly turns around to face me
ers that separate us is so vital to me, feeling you close to me and burying my face in the crook of your neck and your hair, I missed you horribly my queen.
eed your help,” I said
ether, realizing what I’m telling her, I show her my han
t to the sight of my blood.
re of this gentleman?
l let her go.
ar us, who is getting ready to leave.
ya intervenes.
nt needs me, sorry, hurry up and take care of him, poor guy..
ile, happy to have won.
y move. She approaches me with a cotton ball in her hand. She is so close,
ady awakens my animal instinct; with
encircling her wrist.
es meet mine.
to look for the disinfectant… I destabilized her, maybe all is not lost.
Yes, I changed
es me, not giving me any glance this time an
ear distant.
on on her face.
s fine…
swers to my questions.
s.
rise to a crazy desire in me.
ness,” she complains, just as furious as I
, and I delight in these delicious sensations which spread through my body at her
id painfully through clenched teeth.
n on her
g her loose hair form a barrier between her and me.
my mother…but we are togeth
cle her wrist forcing her to stay.
ighten my grip and stand up
evel.
don’t know.
says, looking me straight in the eyes.
massaging his arm…and I…I’m in shock. His serious look, the doubts I had that vanish…but why can’t I accept all
recent years, I don’t want you anymore see…
l leave like that, well she’s sticking her finger in her eye.
ck for you Liya. If I’m back it’s to get marrie
ds and his body freezes.
o pick him up and says n
he happiness, she whispers after a long and unbearable sil
hat we
o his frail, trembling back. I place my palms on either side of the table near hers and lean towards her.
buried in his thick hair as I desperately inhale their specific scent that I horribly needed.
you? I whispered close to his ear.
ed you so much my angel…don’t push me away…
ow on my injured hand which makes me
n and makes me step back fr
r wife, she spits
ving me alone in this room.
bandage is covered in blood. little sava
give up… I ha
taxi and tell him my ex-fiancée’s agency… As long as she still w
lly
h her service.
er the curious gaze of a few passers-by, I cast frequent glances at the entrance and with relief I see her come out.
e closer.
ood evening Marie.
s expecting me to come.
eets me with a nod.
uld like us to talk, do you have a moment to
s parked right there.
ollow her clos
ktail.
k to get married if you want to know…
coughs.
magine.
he cut it.
happened to her?
, what do you want to know about
meet his serious
around the bush, I don’t love my future wife..
m her drink. I am impatiently waiting for her
to speak.
ch better thanks to him.
ore as I listen to his monologue
ercilessly every second. I
eel like I’m suffocating, I’m short of air, I open the first buttons of my shirt, and m
r what ? I.. you were good with Yanis, how come your daughter and..
ything is over, both of us were in the past, and then my daughter’s happiness is what counts .
y anymore, my head weighs a ton, my jaw is
I don’t know why I’m in this state .
gaze of my ex-fiancée.
alling out to me…what does she want from me?
my steps and stop next to her.
I hav
tion? Why ask me now? It doesn’t make any sense, whether I love him or not I’ve already lost him.
e but Liya
ings for her? ” she asks seriously.
d if she wants to know so much, open your
aughter like crazy.
, I’m in love with your daughter. But all that no longer matters, she has found her happiness..”
my monologue, I turn my back on her again
leave.
onversation.