I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 42
Xavier’s point of view
The big day has arrived. This is the happiest day of my life, because yes, finally I am going to get married to the woman of my life, the one I have desired so much and experienced a forbidden love for. My Liya..
A sad smile stretches my lips at this thought..Liya! If only it could be possible, I would marry her and not Elisa. But I must not lose hope because everything is not yet decided.
mile on his lips, patting my shoulder.
ggest lie of my life ” I said wearily.
with my whole body frozen waiting without enthusiasm for the arrival of my fiancée.
o hear what he has to say to me.
ng is decided yet…all it takes is one word to change yo
on her..:
l woman in a white dress arriving…my future wife.
s. The closer it gets, the more I run out of air… inhale and exhale deeply, big guy!
next.
less superficial, And for her dress, she chose a bustier and I hate this outfit which squeezes her small chest a little too much..and then she doesn’t know since I didn’t give her any opinion on it. the multiple dresses that she had described to me. Her eyes finally meet mine…it’s not blue eyes that I see, nor a blond mane, nor such white skin covered with moles, nor a youthful face…I force my mind to stop thinking about another on my wedding day, I stare at the ready to avoid meeting this woman in front of me who seems so unknown to me at that moment.
must come!
as your wife?
el? My eyes drift between the priest
eling my lungs running out of air and the guests stare at me as if I had two heads.
s I do..
nt to ruin your life.. Well done Xavier, you have balls for nothing! The question is immediately asked to the woman in front of me…in that moment I understood…I understood that I lost Liya and that it is impossible for her and me, I no longer have any chance . My fists and my jaw clench at this idea…I was stupid to have thought that she would come…or rather too in love
ence that follows is heavy, I realize that my future wife hasn’t responded yet and she’s staring at me intently with a s
nderstanding what is happening to her.
? You went hard!”
hispers ring out in the room, no one hears u
s priest.
ou talking about?”
can’t believe it, she blurted out with a trembling voice and teary eyes.
e? And obviously everyone
.
ght about yourself without worrying about what I might feel.. I hope you find another person who will support your selfishness and live with your cold heart..
ing her bouquet with a flo
nking is how does she manage to run in those shoes?
More couples who waste my time
l-deserved punch after calling me names..I’m sorry guys.
ya’s point of view…
The
a from afar with her fiancé, she raises her thumb in the air in my direction with a smile on her lips, happy to see me fully enjoying this evening…yes I’m enjoying it, or rather I’m trying.
?
es my cheeks and looks curious
quickly freeing myself from his grip to join Inaya.
er
.
ng back.
r? “
ly to make him understand that I don’t want
case, my brother will accompany you.
take a taxi.
ncluded severely, and so I no longer have a say.
nd hands me a helmet. I stare at the object in his hands and hesitate for a moment before taking it.
its machine.
s.
ned him.
when a frank and magnificent smile stretched his lips when he saw me. I can’t help but to cry silently thinking of these beautiful but painful memories that we spent together, Gabriel, the father of my daughter.. I
.
e but we we have arrived.
aches my
rting and
embrace.
in this state, I promise you that everything will be fine and y
y hair.
u,” I whispered and released myself from his embrace with
wishing him good night, he leaves and I walk the few meters that separate me from my villa but I stop and contemplate the sky. The wind picks up suddenly, clouds cover the sky, I hug my coat tightly to me and smile as the furious rain falls on my face. It’s so nice, I close my eyes and focus on what’s around me. My moment of happiness immediately dissipates when a rumbling comes from the sky and
—Are you still afraid of storms? I thought I had solved thi
voice…I’m dreaming for sure, my brain is playing one of its tricks on me! I turn around suddenly to make sure I’m alone. I don’t know what emotions run through me, joy, excitement, anger, pain, so much at the simple sight of t
n a trembling voice unable to control my confusion.
g palms…and no ring.
o stop everything.
front of me and not with someone else. And I don’t know what to say to him. The rain is getting
tail, it’s just “us” that counts.
— Liya..
cts it towards his muscular chest, right over his heart…it beats fast, as fast as mine.
ne who managed to turn this place upside down. The two of us had been connected for a long time..since I was with your mot
still seems strange to me because I don’t
hat happened.
he one I want and desire… I ask you to believe m
came to win me over despite the fact that I didn’t come to see him today…I’m the happiest but also the most unhappy, it’s strange I admit I want him but the opposite too, I don’t understand myself anymore so I d
only felt desire for you and not love…
antage of the moment that he freezes, I rele
face
ere I am in my home, breathing raggedly, I head towards the living r
pears in my field of vision in her pajamas.
clothes right away or…
me when she notices the state I am in.
ey, what’s happening to
I don’t dare move or look at her, my gaze is just fixed straight ahea
ed,” I finally said.
her hand on mine.
state?
lower my head, not being able to hol
He told me he loves me
llows and I wait impatiently for her to say something instead of remaining silent.
a, do you love him?”
accord, not being able to face what will follow.
Gabriel and do this to you, mom. I regret my actions so much, I swear. And then I lost my child because of him, a good reason to hate him and forget him but …but I am weak, I couldn’t, I suffer every day…I fell in love with him, I love him and this love is slowly destroying me‚ I’m sorry mom for doing this to you..forgive me for loving her, I sobbed, taking her in my arms to alleviate my embarrassment and my pain…
f this happens again. She hesitates for a moment before hugging me and I desperately cling to her and release all th
erything I’ve just told her.
do that to you…
et her gaze.
nis. Xavier and I are in the past and our relationship was devoid of love. Know that I won’t blame you if you love him, love cannot be control
t?! I… you know I don’t deserve it, I say sadly and touched
place, she affirms pointing at something, I follow the direction she shows me and stop at the sight of Xavier standing proudly in the living room with a huge smile on his lips.
to the roots of my hair.
.
y in love with me?
erything, what can I say except that I died of shame.
hear anything. He is crouching in front of me, staring at me for a long time.
he whispers.
ay.
his pleasantly warm fingers venture onto my trembling
Tell me ,
it’s about Xavier..This imposing man and a big a*****e at the same time.
er throughout my being when he places his thin lips on the sensitive flesh of my neck. He leaves such pleasant kisses that make me crazy and hot, he bares my shoulder which
ure from me.
his hoarse voice, I missed absolutely everything and this perfect moment seemed unreal to me.
avier…
he blurted.
hair and pull him back. His gaze darkened by desire is fascinating, I tenderly caress his beardless cheeks. He only shaved very
ogether, his Adam’s apple rises and falls before my
to catch my breath and Monsieur is not very happy I will say.
.
ove you a*s
etween my legs.
know, he smiled sincere
aughter in her arms and covers her eyes so that She doesn’t see what we’re doing.
g on us,” I got angry.
h a smile on her lips.
then gets up and slides his palm against mine.
to leave.
ants to leave me doesn’t really delight me
magine.
s me his full attention.
le jog, he whispers in my ear before nibbling and licking it and I bite my lower lip to stop myself from moaning.
e very different from the one before… where it was forbidden to approach us and that from now on everything is permitted.. .
t warning, punches him to our
al incom
s shoulder. “
leaving my home he gives me one last look…a look full of promise.
Xavier, it’s your turn now.